I must confess… There are days when I feel much less creative than usual
Some days I feel much less confident in just about everything.
and I have realized that the two are very closely related, usually the latter being the cause of the former.
but how do I overcome it?
How do you do it?
I know I’m not the only one who goes through this… At least I would like to believe so.
Have I told you? I have taken antidepressant before.
Please don’t feel sorry for me, it helped me more than anything.
What I was really afraid was when the doctor told me that I may have to take it for the rest of my life.
but there was no way I was going to let myself permanently depend on something like that…
All I needed, really,
was to find peace in my heart,
But at the time, that seemed to be most challenging out of all:
Finding inner peace,
because there was so much going on inside of my heart, inside of my mind…
There were continuous battles, never ending. Every morning and every night my physical being would fight against something spiritual that was pretty much evil residing in my mind which would eventually reveal its existence through a physical sensation.
When you go through troubled times, when everyone around you seem to be turning against you, when things seem to be going the opposite of what you hoped them to be, when there seems to be no meaning or hope in life,
How do you deal with it? How do you get yourself out of the gutter? When you feel like you’ve hit rock bottom, what is that one thing that pulls you out of it?
For me, it was the truth. The ultimate truth that has never changed in the past, and will never change no matter what happens even if the entire human race disappears from the face of the earth. All you have to do is to believe. That’s what I did.
By the way, I’m no longer on medication, it actually ended after a few months, thank God. I’m well now, as long as my spiritual life is healthy which has a lot to do with what I expose myself to, though life does throw you curve balls here and there- you just need to learn to play along, I realized. If you are struggling, please remember that you are not the only one. We were created to interact, to live together, after all.
You are not alone. Never. I want this blog to be more than a fashion blog, lifestyle blog, whatever. This space is precious to me because it connects me to people all over the world, like you. While sometimes sharing too much of my personal life makes me feel vulnerable; most of the times, I find peace by doing so. and I know you will too, because all you need, really, is someone to hear you out.
Happy day, everyone.
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